“He loves me; He loves me not. He loves me; He loves me not!”
For the first decade of my faith, that’s the rollercoaster of emotions I felt regarding my relationship with God.
You see, somewhere along the line, I came to believe that maintaining God’s love was up to me fixing myself of my every problem.
The problem is, I’m human. And humans have proven that they can’t perfectly maintain any standard. We all ebb and flow between success and failure. Hence the rollercoaster of emotions.
Friend, if you can relate to the insecurity I once felt about my relationship with God, then please hear me: God sent Jesus precisely because He knows that you can’t be perfect in everything.
Jesus came as God’s demonstration that His love isn’t here today and gone tomorrow, based upon your performance. But that it’s unconditional, not based on what you’ve done or what you’re sitting on.
So, may you not fear that perfection is what keeps you loved by God. But may you know that God’s perfect love is what keeps you from fear (1 John 4:18).
Today, I pray any insecurity of “He loves me; He loves me not” is exchanged for the certainty of “He loves me! He loves me! He loves me!”